Poem: Never Been So Wrong

Watching the waves crash at the shore
My mind thinks back to when you called me a whore
I did nothing wrong
Apart from wishing to belong
I did everything you asked of me
Even though I could see
How wrong it would be
I always knew that it would surface
But I just didn’t realise it would make me feel this worthless

I put my trust in you
And know I have found out exactly what you could do
I never thought that you were capable of this
But I guess I was fooled by your kiss
I thought that with you I could have it all
I never expected that kind of high would be followed by this sort of low
It’s strange how I never thought I could get something this wrong
Especially after so long

– Esjae xo

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Poem: My Biggest Fear

My body is filled with the regret
Of the things my mind longs to forget
I don’t want to be this person anymore
I wish I could close this one open door
My mind constantly thinks it over
If only I could find a four leaf clover
Then I could wish for all this to disappear
So that I wouldn’t have to live in this constant fear
Of the times your near
Or of the nights I’m on my own
I might now be full grown
But some days I wake with the fear that I did when I was eight years old
So many times I’m overcome by the thoughts of the story I’ve rarely told
I try to bury it deep inside of me
So that I can become the person I’ve always longed to be

– Esjae xo

Recommends: Event – ‘An Evening With Soneni & The Soul’

I was recently asked to share this event which is taking place on 27th February and as it was a request made by somebody that I admire the work of I was more than happy to agree:

You are warmly invited to ‘An Evening With Soneni & The Soul’ on Wednesday 27th February! 

We’ll be bringing the AfroSoulful vibes to The Monarch in Camden. As part of our Million Miles Away EP Tour we will be performing tracks from the EP and a selection of our previous releases in an extended feature set! 
We are so happy to announce that our special guest is the super-talented KOF!! The Liverpool based soul singer has been supported by the likes of 1xtra and MTV and is well on the way to stardom. Have a look at KOF’s video for ‘Child Of The Ghetto’ here:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q_m2vFU-NPQ&list=UUATM6r54DO6KGBz4XDN8OBQ&index=7

Along with KOF, we have the inspiring hiphop/poet NEGO TRUE blessing the stage. Nego is creating a buzz with his SBTV Warm Up session and moving online visuals. Have a look at Nego’s Warm Up session here:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oUtb6n671Ns

Look out for stands with African-inspired homeware from Arhinarmah and exclusive bespoke jewellery from The Griot Collection on the night.

For this event, we have teamed up with some fantastic brands that we are sure you will love and appreciate. Please check out their work. ‘An Evening With Soneni & The Soul’ is supported by:

– Women4Africa (http://www.women4africa.com/)
– The Griot Collection (http://www.alimkamara.com/)
– Arhinarmah (http://www.arhinarmah.co.uk/)
– Belle Noir Bride (http://www.bellenoirbride.co.uk/)
– Ajamu (http://www.facebook.com/young.ajamu.5?fref=ts)
– Fink Unlimited (http://fink-unlimited.com/home.html)

TICKETS FOR THIS EVENT ARE £5 ON THE DOOR AND £3 IN ADVANCE.

ADVANCE TICKETS CAN BE PURCHASED HERE: http://eveningwithsats.eventbrite.co.uk/

See you soon!!

Soneni & The Soul
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q_m2vFU-NPQ&list=UUATM6r54DO6KGBz4XDN8OBQ&index=7
Along with KOF, we have the inspiring hiphop/poet NEGO TRUE blessing the stage. Nego is creating a buzz with his SBTV Warm Up session and moving online visuals. Have a look at Nego’s Warm Up session here:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oUtb6n671Ns
Look out for stands with African-inspired homeware from Arhinarmah and exclusive bespoke jewellery from The Griot Collection on the night.
For this event, we have teamed up with some fantastic brands that we are sure you will love and appreciate. Please check out their work. ‘An Evening With Soneni & The Soul’ is supported by:
– Women4Africa (http://www.women4africa.com/)– The Griot Collection (http://www.alimkamara.com/)– Arhinarmah (http://www.arhinarmah.co.uk/)– Belle Noir Bride (http://www.bellenoirbride.co.uk/)– Ajamu (http://www.facebook.com/young.ajamu.5?fref=ts)– Fink Unlimited (http://fink-unlimited.com/home.html)
TICKETS FOR THIS EVENT ARE £5 ON THE DOOR AND £3 IN ADVANCE.
ADVANCE TICKETS CAN BE PURCHASED HERE: http://eveningwithsats.eventbrite.co.uk/
See you soon!!
Soneni & The Soul



I took the information directly from their facebook event. I’m sure it will be a great night for all that will attend.

– Esjae xo

Poem: I’m Still Standing

I’m sat here close to the brink
Sipping at my drink
Trying my hardest to make it so I can’t think
About the nightmare that I’ve been living in
Struggling to not sin
Fighting a war I wasn’t sure I could win

But here I am, I’m still standing
And I’ve come to realise that this is my life I’m commanding
I used to have a dream, but I was always one step behind
But now it’s time to find
That extra part of me
That can show everyone and make them see
That I’m fighter, a winner, a champion
Not ready to disappear into the millions
I can make a stand
Give all those I care about a hand

I need to snap out of this feeling of uselessness
And emerge with the feeling of ruthlessness
That has always been shown to me
Its time to show them what it’s like to be
On the other side
Struggling to keep the feelings inside that you have to hide

-Esjae xo

Poem: Demon In The Dark

Everyone has a demon in the dark
Something that has left its mark
On a life, young or old
It might be a story not ready to be told
Kept back by a memory putting it on hold
For others its a physical fear
Of something they don’t want near

It can bring out the bad in some but the best in others
Everyone has a demon in the dark
Including those we think are the strongest, fathers and mothers
In everyone’s life something will leave its mark
To make them stop and think
Keeping them up at night without sleeping a wink

No matter what it is we all have one
Subconsciously fighting a battle we didn’t know was there to be won
But one day you’ll get there
And when that day comes you’ll be able to live without a single care

– Esjae xo

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